Loki likes my playlist

I wish I had more profound things to write about but honestly I don't, although it is interesting what you can learn about someone be they human or god by their musical tastes. Loki has like I mentioned before became a near constant presence in my life he's around allot even for the more mundane moments. I'm a great lover of music and I will listen to pretty much anything a good thing I guess when dealing with a god who loves change and diversity. So in the past few months what have I learned about Loki from his musical tastes well for starters Loki is a hopeless romantic, yeah I know everyone is doing a doubletake on that one but it's true just let me explain okay.

I've read posts by the likes of Galina Krasskova and others who talk about Loki's great love for his wife Sigyn, and while I never doubted the truth of that I had yet to meet Sigyn or get chance to see the two of them together. Then one day I had a few errands to run around town and invited Loki to come with me if he wanted. So we're in my minivan Loki sitting in the front passengers seat chatting about nothing in particular with the music playing when the song "Angel" by Shaggy comes on Loki gets really quiet he even began to shapeshift a little. Let me back up and explain something normally when I see Loki he appears to be in twenties with ginger hair, green eyes and a slender build. His hair varies allot in length I've seen him with everything from shaggy I need a haircut length hair to long hair past his shoulders. Now when Loki is upset about something his appearance changes he looks a good ten to fifteen years older his hair and eyes become darker the light sparkling green deepens to a more hazel color the bright orange/red hair darkens to a blood red auburn. When this happens I know one of two things is going on either I've done something and I'm about to get my ass chewed by The Breaker of Worlds or he's thinking about his personal misfortunes and heartbreaks now Loki isn't much of the pity party type, but like anyone who has suffered a loss there are things that trigger the sadder memories. So Loki is listening to the song gets really quiet and starts shifting before just poof he's gone. I'm sitting there like "Dude if you hated the song you could have just told me so I mean I could have just changed it." A minute or so passes before Loki reappears but he's not alone he has a young women with him she's wearing a long blue dress and has brownish hair she's very pretty in the natural understated way. Loki leans forward and says "Play that song again it reminds me of Sigyn, and I want her to hear it." Sigyn is blushing and whispering to Loki something to the effect of "What are you doing,? Why did you insist on bringing me here?" she struck me a rather shy and soft spoken and I'm watching them thinking oh how cute when Loki says "Play the song." and I'm like oh yeah sorry then because hey when will I ever get the chance to do this again I put on my best radio voice and give Loki a grin and say  "This one goes out from Loki to Sigyn" and hit the back button so the song restarts. Okay so I didn't really get it until then the depth of love and affection between these two but the way she blushes even deeper and leans into his embrace as tears begin to well up in her eyes and the way he holds her pulling her close kissing the top of her head as his own eyes mist up a little has me melting they are just too cute together it's nice to see a love like that it's so very reassuring and reaffirming that if a couple really loves each other they truly can get through anything together. Also for anyone who has ever wonder if Loki is truly appreciative of Sigyn and what she did for him with the bowl holding he is he really truly is. A link to the song and it's lyrics for anyone unfamiliar with it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_j_HYMUakpk


Now last night something new happened I have the bad habit of singing along to any music playing now I'm not the best singer around I'm not awful but not really good either. Loki however doesn't seem to mind as long as you are enjoying yourself. Anway recently my ten year old daughter has gotten me into the music from the show Glee I'm not real big on following the show, but I'm loving all the remakes of songs from my childhood. I have to give the show's cast props for being a very talented bunch. So at my daughters request I downloaded a bunch of the music from the show and late last night I was singing along to their rendition of "True Colors" by Cyndi Lauper when suddenly there is a third voice beside the voices on the recording of the song and my own Loki is singing along a  very nice baritone. I'm like "Oh hey nice voice." he chuckles and says "Hey I like this song it has a good message." I'm like "Yeah it does doesn't it." and we go back to singing along it was just a brief moment of shared enjoyment, but I can see where the songs lyrics appeal to Loki who is all about being true to yourself.

The last thing I learned was Loki is a a huge goofball in the crackiest way possible last night I met a brand new diva, a superstar soon to be at the top of the charts her/his name.... LOKI GAGA.... um yeah, so what if my god likes dressing up like the long lost glitter obsessed love child of  Lady Gaga and Kesha  So what if he had boobs and a dick that clearly visible in the skin tight shorts he was wearing, and he likes dancing around my living room in all his transvestite/transgendered glory. I think it's wonderful he has such an off the wall sense of humor and that he fully embraces the message of the song Born This Way. Clearly he was poking a bit of fun at some of Lady Gaga and Ke$ha's more out there music video looks, but he was also testing me a bit seeing if I would be bothered by his androgynous look which really was more intriguing than anything.

What I've learned so far when he loves he loves deeply and appreciates those who love him, he values being yourself no matter what yourself happens to be faults and all no matter how  idiosyncratic it may be love who you are and be honest about it. Above all have a good sense of humor about life and don't be afraid to laugh and make others laugh even at your own expense.

So I guess this makes me a Lokean

A few months ago right around new years something very strange happened to me I found out a certain Norse trickster god had taken an interest in me and my family. The funny thing in all of this is until about a year ago I knew next to Nothing about Loki other than he was a god from the Norse pantheon. I had never had any interest in Norse mythology or Vikings or any of the normal paths people take to finding themselves claimed by or drawn to a particular deity. Nope for me it just couldn't be anything that normal. No you see from the very first episode I have been a die hard fan of the show Supernatural. First I was a Dean girl then Castiel showed up and I had a serious crush on the blue-eyed socially awkward angel and the actor who played him, who can blame me Misha Collins is a totally hottie. But a fan favorite had always been a minor character who for several seasons had only been known as the trickster. His episodes were always hilarious he put the Winchester boys through hell even killing Dean over and over in increasingly Loony Tunes like ways including dropping a piano on him just to teach his brother Sam a lesson. He also tortured a college frat boy by having him think he had been abducted by aliens and probed over and over again before being made to slow dance with one to the song lady in red. All this probably sounds very strange to anyone not a fan of Supernatural and you are probably asking what in the hell does this have to do with Loki well I'm getting there eventually just going a bit fangirl before I get there if anyone is curious the episodes relating to Loki and his portrayal as the Trickster are Tall Tales, The Mystery Spot, Changing Channels and Hammer of the Gods all excellent and very amusing episodes. Now back to my story so first I was a Dean girl then a Cas girl and then Kripke and the writers pulled a fast one on us the Trickster was actually the archangel Gabriel in hiding. The Trickster/Gabriel/Loki was played by the very talented Richard Speight jr and I had a new favorite character. So on LiveJournal I have an account where I dabble in writing fanfiction and took a request to write a fic where I decided to go into Gabriel's past while pretending to be Loki. To get it right I ended up having to research Loki and this is where my relationship with Loki began.

I will freely admit it didn't start very reverently I mean seriously I read the story about how he ended up being Sleipnir's mom almost died laughing and decided I had to read more about Loki since he sounded like an awesome character and to me, and at the time that's all he was a character in a story. Nothing happened for the longest time I continued to read stories about Loki every so often, but didn't think of it as much more than just mythology. Then something happened every since I was very little I've always seen ghosts and spirits it's not an everyday thing and no I do go around going "I see dead people." but it has happened on and off for as long as I can remember. Now I come from a very devout Christian background my family has been a mix of Methodist/Baptist/Pentecostal and I'm from the rural Appalachian South so faith in the Christian God was something I as raised on. It however was not something I exclusively stuck with from the age of fourteen when my aunt unwittingly gave me a book on Wicca I dabbled with in it. Then in my twenties under pressure from my family I decided to give it up and become a Christian something that never truly clicked for me it always seemed to be missing something and I always seemed to have to hide parts of myself to fit in with their doctrine. So for nearly a decade I avoided practicing Wicca and ignored my natural talents and tried to make myself be a good Christian but really I was miserable because I was never really feeling it and growing very tired of the charade so I stopped attending church and started ducking the questions of my friends and family as to why. I still hadn't made up my mind to start practicing Wicca again but i had decided I needed at least a break from Christianity and Norse Paganism wasn't even on the horizon yet as far as I knew. Then it happened I saw a ghost again nothing huge just a wandering spirit walking down a country road as my fiance kids and I were driving to his brothers house this time however I wasn't the only one to see it my son and fiance did as well.

So my son started asking questions and as I tried answering them I found myself going to lots of sites on the internet looking for my own answers from this I decided I really did want to start practicing Wicca again. I was always fairly good with the pendulum and I'd been having some odd things happen where I had been feeling a presence nothing threatening but something much stronger than anything I had ever felt before that so I decided to use the pendulum to try and get some answers. My fourteen year old son Nathan walked in on me while I was using the pendulum and asked if he could try it after some deliberation I decided to let him and he asked so can I try to talk to one spirit in particular I told him yes he could try Nathan who I had just told some of the stories about Loki to wanted to try and contact Loki I was like Nathan I'm not sure that's such  good idea and was trying to talk him out of it when the pendulum started to swing wildly actually pulling itself from Nathan's grasp I picked it up and it once again started spinning wildly so I asked

"Is this Loki?"

The pendulum indicated yes.

Do you want to talk to us

Yes

We're not bothering you are we?

No

From there we had a very interesting conversation via the pendulum and Loki's answers seemed to suggest somewhere in our family's history some ancestors had been devoted to him. From then on Loki started coming around it's now May and the past few months have been interesting as his presence in my life and the lives of my family has become stronger.